Truth and facts

- I should be writing the last portion of my MBA final paper
- Im almost done with school f o r e v e r
- Moving was one of the best decisions Ive ever made
- I may have fallen a little in love with this city
- Summer here is truly spectacular
- I still get lonely at times
- Yet, Im still really ok with my single life
- Im a different person than I was a year ago
- Im happier
- The sun and moon shine differently up here and I like it. Reminds me that seeing things little different is sometimes needed for us to grow. It took me nearly 10 months, but I finally feel like myself up here and it feels great. Life is funny, but sure is grand.

Debating writing several times recently. Been lying awake at night so restless and feeling like I need some kind of outlet. Stopped writing because of where it often led and I needed to put that past well...in the past...but sometimes, it's just needed.

Recently talked with someone my age who bought a condo a year younger than I and started chatting about my little housing crisis history. While I have no problem talking about the situation (because I have nothing to be ashamed of) it got me thinking. For about three years I felt like one of the most put together people I knew. I could tell people "I bought a house" and they were slightly impressed. I looked responsible, settled, like I had this successful life...and then the unthinkable happened.

I once described it as if someone doused my life with lighter fluid and then lit a match...because thats exactly how it felt. Everything that was definably me was no longer. I no longer felt successful, put together or even stable. For a solid year, things sucked...then I moved. This move has been not only necessary for the season I was in, but was also an answer to my hearts desires. I know this is where I am supposed to be right now, yet it has yet to feel easy. I often wonder, when will it all really get better?

This adventure started out rough and has even rougher times along the way, but I feel Im finally starting to settle in. The end of the program is near and more uncertainty lies ahead. I still feel lonely at times. Have yet to find people that truly bring out ME and it often leaves me wanting to jump on a plane (ya know, because I can).

Im not ready to head back, I needed and wanted this. Just wish I knew whats next or when things would feel stable again. Hurry up, life.

Closing a chapter

So, once upon a time I owned a home...this home in fact (isn't it cute?)...but the day I had fought so long and hard to keep at bay finally came. My house is no longer mine. These are not easy things to admit, but sometimes there are things in life you cannot control.

In December of 2008 I lost my job and so a year long fight to find one and keep my home was on. Miracle after miracle allowed me to pay bills and keep this cute little roof over my head - and then, I moved. I returned at christmas to the little 767sq ft box to essentially say goodbye. While I had no idea when the day would come, I knew it was near and in February my parents packed up the life I had built over 3 years and put it all into storage.

The pain of letting go of something that had become of a piece of me was not easy, yet what choice did I really have? My mom reminded me that it was not really mine to begin with and one day something better would fill its place. I feels like I did so much growing up here. Many bottles of wine were shared over laughs and cheese and many a mornings spent recalling the previous nights chaos. I miss my park and neighborhood dearly, but realize that is a chapter of my life that is now closed.

On to new things and a new life (where it rains much more than I ever realized) Lana and I have grown accustomed to condo living...and sharing our "backyard" with other dogs (ha) Im thankful to live in such a beautiful city and cant wait for what is next.

I like tumblr more than blogger

Im sorry you've been so abandoned, I attribute it to so much change in life. When I started this bit of interweb nonsense I very much needed something that forced me to express myself, and well now that Ive become so healthily* expressive I don't feel inclined to write as often. Im thinking that I'll try to revamp it over the break. I really need to find a template to post larger pictures.

Oh! speaking of pictures, Im after a new lens (or like 5 - ie. as many as I can acquire) for my nikon. Im SO BORED with my stock lens and really want to take pictures more often.

Anyway, until then follow my tumblr! Why you ask, because I post awesome things like this swoon worthy photo:
















*I didnt think "healthily" was a word, but spell check didn't highlight it so...I win.

the rundown:

• Ive officially been living in canada for 6 months (6 months!!!) sometimes its hard to believe this grand city is my home
• I lived through the olympic chaos and WHAT an experience was - the paralympics concluded sunday and its going to be so odd to not see all the lime and turquoise signage anymore
• I loathe school, but toughing it out (hello, gotta make use of that $45k in loans) - Im meant to be here, so all is good
• Soooo ready for it to be spring - Im so over coats and boots
• Lana and I live such a different life here, condo life! its a change and I miss my little house, but I adore my neighbors and I feel blessed to live in such a wonderful neighborhood
• I miss the California political nonsense and being in the middle of it - if there is one thing school has taught me (other than my hatred for academia) its that I REALLY love what I was doing
• In other political news, my dad is running for Sacramento County Assessor! Nuts...our entire family is involved in politics. Its a rough page (and start) for him, but support him none the less (Im going to help him out)
• Im going back to Italy for a week next month - cant waaaait - and speaking of, Im thinking of trying a bit of a social media experiment because a) I love me some social media and b) Im thinking of writing one of my final papers on its use in marketing and business
  
• I miss home, MY home and friends, but Im not ready to go back anytime soon - I was ready for this change and Im going to ride out the wave
  

Hows that for a quick update of life happenings? I need to re-do this blog, but lets face it: I no longer sit in an office wasting the day away and it just takes too much time. Follow me on tumblr! I update that thing often and am always posting photos, videos, quotes and new music finds.

Till the next adventure - muah!

I keep meaning to write, I feel like Im getting closer...I mean, this is a step in the right direction (right?)

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When did life so drastically change?

because Im a big fat procrastinator

I started a wish list/fun things to give on my tumblr!

I also post there more often than anywhere. Why? Because I like sharing fun and pretty things and takes less energy than writing a blog. I feel less inclined to be serious over there so have a looksie

Happy monday!